Soul Searching

We search our whole lives for a spouse, companion, husband, or wife and the people around us always tell us in our quest to first find ourselves and love will find us. Have you ever been so in sync with someone who you notice that they are just like you? You can complete each other’s sentences, you know what he wants on his plate at Thanksgiving, you know how she’ll react to a statement that was made… You’re so in sync with a friend that it’s almost like that person is you? That’s your soul mate; that person is you, in a sense.

When seeking love we often say we’re looking for our soul mate. Someone who we connect to on a higher level. This person is rare and some people never meet themselves, they just find the closest thing to them and fall in love. But some people, .like myself and a couple of others I know, were fortunate enough to find ourselves in someone else and the love shared is magical. I found myself in male form and he was such a beautiful spirit, not perfect at all but beautiful nonetheless. I knew from the moment I noticed me in him that I had to keep him, but I didn’t. I knew when I noticed me in him that he would get lost and confused and take what seemed to be the easier road. I felt when I noticed him in me that I wouldn’t express my anger directly to him, I’d just say whatever, bottle it up, and move on. But I knew when I noticed more of him in me that I’d have to completely walk away from him in order to continue to move on. I’ve met my soulmate, and the love was like a raging fire burning beautifully inside of an ocean, unexplainable. The connection was so rare, the feelings so strong, that we could not handle it so we called it lust and backed away. The connection was so magnetic that backing away took so much strength, strength that neither of us had. I had to be strong for the two of us, so I was… I knew if I backed away, he’d do the same; see I know him. He is me.


Potential Love

Potential… Have you ever fell for someone’s “could be”? It’s really easy to do. You have someone that talks the talk, walks the walk… or at least some of the talk and some of the walk… yeah. Don’t do it again! What if that person never lives up to that potential? Like you’re waiting around for them to see how dope they could be but they’re more complacent than dope. Like dude, your complacency out weighs your dopeness? Potential will have you waiting around forever. Seeing and falling for someone’s potential is worst than someone asking you to wait for them. At least when someone ask you to wait they know they have potential and they’re giving you a head’s up that you’ll be waiting. When you fall for someone’s potential you don’t even realize you’re waiting for something. It’s like getting trapped, tangled, intertwined in a self woven web. You did this to yourself. Admitting it is the hardest step. And you know when you’ve fallen for potential because you find yourself defending that person’s dopeness with conversations like “girl, Sean is so smart. He fixed the tv last week and now he’s thinking about going back to school. He is way too brilliant to not have finished his engineering degree. He just hates homework, ya know.” But wait… “Bruh my baby can do your girls hair. She’s always doing her homegirls hair before the club. I’ve been trying to get her to get a cosmetology degree but she’s straight on that.”

Talents were given to us to use, not waste. Don’t fall for the man you know he could be, especially when he doesn’t know who he could be, fall for who he is and nurture what you see in him. Don’t fall for what you think she might be, nurture it until she sees it. If she never sees it, it’s okay to lover her from a distance. Don’t sit around and wait for anyone to be all they can be, they may never become what you see. You may be vision impaired!



As I awake from my slumber
And I remember my dreams
In a dream world I’ll be draped in nothing but our covers
As the scent of love hovers
Above us
The soft glow of an awakening sky
Creeps upon your eye
And I
Admire your sleeping beauty

As I move through my dream world I roll over to kiss you
And realize I’ve missed you
I hope this isn’t an issue
But I’m smitten by you

As I listen to my dream world birds chirping good morning
As my smile replies ‘how do you do’
I glance over at you
As you murmur ‘I love you’
Yes, I love you too

As I awake from my slumber only to notice
That you’re still just my dream guy
As I gaze upon today’s sky
And sigh…
I’ll miss you until I stumble upon sleep
And we meet and greet
Again while I sleep
In the perfection of my dream world

Come To Me

Come home to me and I’ll make you smile, 
I’ll make everyday worth your while.
Come home to me and I’ll feed your heart,
I’ll give you what you need to make your day start.
Come home to me and I’ll kiss you so soft,
I’ll dress you withmy body and you won’t want to take me off.
Come home to me and I’ll love you daily,
I’ll be yours forever and faithfully.

My Love

I am in love with a man that I can never have
And he’s in love with me
If ever our paths cross again
He’s following down this path with me
I was sent from above
To give him love…
I should be his joy
He should be my pain
She better watch out
If our paths cross again
My every thought of him brings tears
Because absence makes the heart grow fonder
And deeper I’ve fallen throught the years
But I’m in love with a man that I can never have
And he’s in love with me

Help me…

Somebody take my heart from me

I’m sure I can live without it

I need lungs to breath

A brain to think

My heart just hurts…

So somebody take my heart from me…

Somebody take my feelings from me

Not my senses just my feelings…

They are becoming worthless because they keep falling into the wrong hands

Hands of the man that never wanted to touch

Hands of the man that only wanted to touch

Hands of the man, well the boy, that won’t grow up

Just stand up

Be straight up

Man up

If exploration of my body is the topic

Tell me

If exploration of my soul is the object

Show me

If you just want to reach back and grab my ass just let it be known by me


It’s mine, whatever you want from me, is mine

I choose to give you me and you dine

On the feast that is my mind

my body

my spirit

my heart

my love

All mine

But I took the time

To let my light shine

So my heart you could find

But with that light I became blind

And my heart you missed, my body you did find…

So somebody take my heart from me…

Somebody take my heart from me

I don’t know how to use it

I always lose it

And someone always chooses to misuse it

Which shows me you found it

Cared nothing about it

Beat it


It was mistreated

Then stamped “Return to sender”

And my growth you did hinder

Future love is slender

This poor heart is tender

And I can’t fix it…

Clearly I continue to play tricks on it

So somebody take my heart from me

Maybe you can mend it

And if you can, keep it

Allow real feelings to deepen

Allow true love to creep in

Sneak in

Leak in

And strengthen

This weak lone muscle…

So somebody take my heart from me…

A Hopeless Love

I’ll leave my heart on your nightstand

I want you to have it

I already know you’re not the best man

Still I want you to have it

You treat me so bad sometimes

Even when love and honor are my only crimes

But I’ll leave my heart on your nightstand

I want you to have it

It’ll be there when you wake up

Waiting patiently before you fall asleep

I hope you’ll hold it daily

Or at least just think of me

I left my heart on your nightstand

Can you keep it safe for me?

You’ve done it before

Now no one else can come thru that door

So I left my heart on your nightstand

Please love me once more…